A CHICK IN A NUTSHELL

I need to get the fuck off here and sort my life out. Goodbye for now :)

Okay he’s a guy I haven’t seen to be able to get over fully since starting Uni. He’s an average looking guy but in my opinion he’s hot. I know I have no chance with him, because he hardly even acknowleges me and when he does its minimal small talk and no flirting. Also…I’ve heard he’s quite shy and shit when talking to women, which makes it worse because I know I like him and that I wouldn’t turn him away if he started talking to me. He also doesn’t seem weird, like some guys. I see him almost every day in the week and it’s hard to see that he has no clue, so I don’t even get his reaction. If he told me himself that he didn’t like me in that way I would have gotten over him ages ago. He just seems to keep popping back in to my head and not go away. I hate it. :/

Nope,  not at the moment. I know that I would be a shit girlfriend at this moment in time. I wouldn’t be able to commit myself now as well as how I would in a few years down the line. Trust me, I’d love a nice caring boyfriend but not now. I wouldn’t be able to hold one down. I also have trust issues with men these days…and more importantly I wouldn’t be able to trust myself around other guys especially if I had a boyfriend and at uni, it would be hard to exclude myself from lads in a bar or club. :/

I am definitely NOT leaving! I have just had a few shitty days lately and halls doesn’t help. Amy has gone home and won’t be back in Swansea til Monday, but luckily some people have come to their senses and are coming out with me :)

Also I feel better because Aoithe and I are starting to talk again :) and so now I’m excited about the house next year with me, her, Nat, Emma and Sara. Also got Nats pink ladies birthday celebration next wednesday and Amys birthday the following week. Then going to Birmingham the day after to Cadburys world, which has been organised by the Uni.

However though I am going to start my second year and see what it’s like until Christmas. I have heard it does get better so I will probably end up staying on. I just hope its worth another three grand. :)

I can’t wait to have kids when I’m older! I know I’m only 18 but Ive made a decision that at some point down the line (not anytime soon) I deffo want kids! I love them at that young age when they’re like one years old and all cheeky and that. When I see random young kids in the street or in photos I can’t help but get all broody and like ”awww” and none of my mates are like that as much as I am! hahaa…

Just thought I’d say besides my family, my kids would be the best thing in the world to happen to me. They’d come first always! :)

Definitely. Been single a year now and it’s gooood :) No commitment and it’s practical at uni, because I wouldn’t have time for a boyfriend.

Nope :) Its all lust these days. I don’t believe in proper love until you’re older. I think I know when I will feel that because I hate men, so it would be shocking to find one I really like. Hahaa.

No feckin’ way! :)

Nope